Be in love, youth comes once...,

Love after marriage, and love before marriage - you have two choices in your love life. I prefer the second one. My first crush was with one of my classmate, that had happened when I was in just 3rd std. But I didn't have the courage to propose her and express my feeling. She was very talented, and always stood first or sometimes second in the final exam. And I was very happy to see her coming first in the final exam that I hated all those who tried to overthrew her ranking...There were no other way to pull her attention to me except scoring high marks. And thus I studied damn hard. I waited eagerly to complete our Board Exam, so that I could proposed her.



After my Board Exam, I thought that its time to express my feeling[s], and accordingly I tried very hard, but of no use. I couldn't even speak even a single word in front of her. Waited for another year to build up my courage, but when I really got shed off my timidity, and I was ready, she was already with someone. And that someone turned out to be one of my relative. Today she is happily married with that very someone, and has a beautiful daughter.

Being in love always makes you tender in heart, but not compatible in all your acts throughout the ages. Be a mommo's guy, no doubt. Be always a friend with your books, great. But don't let your youth goes without love. There is nothing wrong in falling in love when you are just a student. The love which you sow in your youth today will make you feel tender in your whole life.

After completion of your study, after getting a nice job, you can find out someone whom you can happily married and compromise your love life. An understanding hubby, a lovely child, your life is complete, as you may say now. But believe me, you are missing something which is very very beautiful than your now so called complete life.

If you have someone whom you love but not yet express your feeling, please don't delay anymore, go and express your feeling right now. Your proposal won't go waste, but make sure that you have the right choice...believe me someone somewhere is made for you. Grave the opportunity to be always with your right love.

...and the story goes on and on...

You say something against him and he will say something against you. She will pull out a new version, and you will clarify it till you are fed up of all the stuff and start twisting with another tale. Come on dear, enough is enough, learn punctuation once again and practice better where to ink full stop. In old good times, you were occupied in praising someone, but when the same equations are no more, still you are occupied in pulling down the very person. Shame on you babe...

What is the use of involving the innocent parent only to get some mileage! You want the same importance, same respect, same dignity...but you don't want to work hard. Do only little work but make huge claim/sound...what a formula, huh!

Stop riding on your [dim] ego. Expect less 'self importance' from others, your love is suffocating, free it. Stop creating scenes. Or don't involve me in it. Why you are wasting your precious time in spreading rumour that too using someone's clean image? Be honest to yourself, leadership comes ...not earned on bad mouthing. TRULY, You are sick babe!

Admit that you are doing wrong. Learn from your failure, let it be your stepping stone to the success. Stop moving from pillar to post and blame someone for your failure, that won't earn you a descent favour. You are happy dominating your lover, with some borrowed lines to seduce. Just shut up your mouth. Don't come in front of me, or you will get a thunderous slap on your face...both side!

Beg pardon, don't be!!! hmmm....Sabah!!!....jaise or..... Adnam "ko lift karade"!!!

Ima keithel /Khwairamband Bazaar - New hope

A small city in a small state, but still due to lack of proper administration, everything got messed up. A flyover with old-odd model has come up after much delay, making traffic flow some relieve in this Ima Keithel vicinity. Good atleast.

Ima Keithel, carefully crafted by the industrious spirit of Manipuri women represents Manipuri womens' identity. More than seven thousand ima stalls earn their livelihood from this market which is said to have founded by Khagemba Maharaj of Manipur in the late 16th century.

Now three new keithels [market complex] are in the pipeline to inaugurate, Khwairamband, Lakshmi and New Markets; where a municipal fee of Rs. 1.70 lakh has to be paid for acquiring a 4x4ft stall. Good for all of us, specially our keithel ima[s]. It's here in the Ima Keithel that our men consecrated their devotion and life to the women of the state. Among the three complex, two of them has already completed, but still waiting for the last one to inaugurate together. Can't understand the logic behind for such a long delay in throwing the market complex to the public!

"Hasbian or Wasbian"

It was terribly hot outside, light was out,... I was lethargic enough and no one would dare enough to move out under the scorching sun. At that wee hour, She came with a bag full of ornaments....gold chains, pendents and rings and many more. Sat nearby me and cried loudly.

"Dada, please keep this bag with you, and don't let him know that this bag is with you!"

When she was 16, she enjoyed her best part of life. As it happened, helping one of her friend in meeting their lover dragged her life into trouble. As usual, she was helping them in their liaison on that day too. Those two love birds were supposed to elope on a particular day. On that ill-fated day, when the guy turn up with full preparation with three four friends along, her friend didn't turn up. As face saving, the guy eloped her instead after much fight and persuasion...this and that...

Though rich, she belongs to a lower social strata. The guy whom she eloped belongs to a higher class and was also very rich. After their marriage, the guy was sent for further studies outside, leaving her alone at home. Her in-laws tortured like anything, and didn't let her communicate with outside world. After much fight, she returned back to her parents place, and waited her husband for a pretty four years. But when her husband returned back, refused to owe her as his wife, doubting and blaming against her innocent character.

From that moment, she has been playing only one game "fake love-part time marriage". Now she is 28, and quite experience in flirting men of all kind. Her phone won't stop ringing until she switched off.

One thing I admire most is her sincerity to me. One Rakhsha Bandhan day, she came to my place and took my blessing.

"Dada you are the only one in my life now, who can look after and taken care of me when I am in need"

Many times, I had discussions with her, about life, future etc. She cried a lot, lamented but I can't remove the hatred for society and men from her mind...

At the receiving end

Both are my friends, and its now very difficult to decide to whom I should favour. Both of them are regularly keeping in touch through think and thin, and are well exposed to all of my friend circles. Confused!!!

Well, the story goes like this, One of my dear friend was supposed to get tie the knot with his childhood love eight years back from now. Unfortunately, that relations falls out due to misunderstanding between the two families. And thus the marriage was canceled for forever. The two love were not in talking terms and thus separated till seven years. In between, this dear friend found a new love and was introduced to me. Being a good friend I become closer and the bonding has developed at a certain. Everything were going smoothly till the first departed love surfaced all of a sudden. Being first love my friend forgive and cleared the misunderstanding. Now the problem is who is going to sacrifice for whom?

In a relationship, the most important thing to maintain is mutual trust and understanding. If once the faith is lost in your love, it will be very difficult to get it back. Sometimes temptation leads to act unfaithful things, I agree, but don't let temptation overcome you. Be faithful to your love, admit it when found yourself at the receiving end.

To the beggar with a difference

In Manipur, it is very rare to see beggar begging in the market or public places. Its been almost a decade away from now, but still I believe, you could hardly find a beggar in the city there. I still remember, my mother used to give clothing and foods away to people who came once in a year to our house asking alms. They were, in a way beggars, but 99% of them were from hilly areas where their houses were brunt down, and family members were either killed in the communal fighting or get untracheable. Circumstances compelled them to come down to the plain areas and took help to reconstruct their lives.
Here, beggars are like a part of a big and organised business. You can find in every nook and corner of the city. You can't stop your vehicle at any traffic point without disturbances from beggars. In the buses, small children follow a girl or a boy and sing some mixed songs and will force you to give them money. With their horribly dirty fingers, they will pull your shirts to draw your attention, if you protest they can behave like anything. They behave like as if they have someone to protect them.
But this beggar has a very descent behaviour. Whenever I saw him, my hand automatically pulls out a note from my wallet. He must be in his mid sixty. He never forgets to greet before begging and never forgets to acknowledge after taking begs. I have a very bad habit of giving begs only to old women of above sixties. I can't bear the senior citizen coming out to the streets and begging for foods. But except this beggar, I had never given money to men beggars, because I urged myself that they can work and earn a living instead of begging.
This evening, I was returning from attending a "Light and Sound Programme". Since very late and feel very hungry, I asked the auto driver to speed up. When I reached the traffic point of the flyover nearby my place, I asked the auto to halt for some time. I looked around but to my surprise I could not see any beggar around as usual. After crossing the traffic, I asked the driver to stop at a cigarette shop nearby, light up a stick of my brand and inquire about the absence of beggars there. The shop owner said, looking left and right by pulling out his neck outside for a while "Sab, sabko le gaya"...Kisne...."Police ne, commission ka chakker lagta hain..."

Why I am happy today???

Finally, a light at the end of the tunnel! After suffering such a long humiliating and discredit years in struggle, am facing the dawn for the first time. This fine night, am very happy. Why I am happy today...hmmm may be am content with the way my life is shaping up...or is it because of the call I had receive from someone special in the evening with some hidden agenda in the making?...or because of the constant thinking about her...whatever, the bottom line is now I am very happy. I can't go to US of A to write a travelogue; not because I don't have the guts. Or I can't emcee to some talk show(s) to earn popularity. My priority as of now is to finish up the book(s) currently in the making for some time now. I want to publish these two books respectively on September 26 and October 21 this year. Sometimes, we unknowingly commit mistakes that has effect for the whole life. And sometimes, we knowingly commit mistakes that has also effect through out life. Here I would like to urge the judgment proclaimed which reward same punishment for both the mistakes committed. Because of the wrong judgment, an innocent, each of the respective mistake is suffering, at each end. Lets meet someday, and discuss about this confuse thing. Hmmmm... A cup of tea with thick tea leaves does some real magic at this wee hour. Time and tide waits for none, time has gone. Forget all these bulls...t, Lets celebrate today...cuz, am very happy to see myself without a tear in my eyes finally.

sometimes late at night...

I have a very bad habit. That I can't close my eyes before reading something. And very recently I have shifted this habit of reading books/letters/diaries to reading SMSes. I have some preserve SMSes from my past. Among them here I am quoting one "Ok, if you say so. Like every other time, I will also give you a chance this time. By the way give me your dateline..."
By this line you can easily guess what my nature must be in those days. I always promised her, that I won't do this and that. And I was strictly obeying the self made rules. After two or three days, I will return to my normal behaviour, and the same story repeats again...She won't speak to me for many hours/days... She wont prod me for anything until I make her another dangerous promise...I know this time too I won't keep it. You won't believe, I promise, I always tried to make her happy by doing everything...She too always do everything to make me happy...but who can fight with destiny!!!
Today, I am remembering you, missing you desperately. You must be sleeping, cocooned under warm love of your family. Late at this hour, I can't even find any star in the sky which could occupied my time in counting them and helping me in forgetting you and your memory. Oh my dear, wish you a better life, full of happiness... Today I promise you that I am a changed man, come and see me, ... but I know you won't...One thing very bad about you is you are very stubborn.

Thank you for caring me my dear friend.

"...My phone is not working, my pocket is empty. What the hell is happening? Late in the evening when I returned back, found my computer not working. Someone whom I trusted most had removed and taken away the Hard Disk and RAM without my knowledge. I can't blame him for his misconduct, because I know at whose insistence he was doing. Circumstances compelled every body to act like not like. I understand. My boss ring me up, and apprise me, some of my close associates whom doesn't like to disclose their names, visited him and talked rubbish about me. My boss said, don't worry, I don't believe them. Huhhh...I can't find a single stick of cigarette, even bottles are empty. Though I had promise not to drink to my love, at this moment I can go wild for a single drop. If you were around my dear, less will be the burden, mental havoc!!! Where are you?..."

Time is over, I can't sit at a corner, sulking... Without crossing the worst situations, no one can touch the best corners of life...Now, I am happy with old and new friends around, sharing everything, forgetting about the past... Vodka with limca, rum, whisky... choice is mine, with glasses full. Now I realise, good friend is someone who can take their own decision themself, and very importantly not depending upon their near and dear on taking decision what to do and what not to do for their friends. Thank you my dear friend for caring me. I wish, I can share all these happinese with my love!!!

The power of love

After almost three years of no-where-about, suddenly come into contact with her. She has undergone many changes, like, now knows how to make her face beauty, wooing others with single liners, maturity in decision making...list is a little bit long my dear. One thing which I observe, that seems remain stagnant, is her temper... Her Temper!!! Oh My God!

Somehow I came to know about her break-up with her long time lover, (source...she as well as her colleagues). Feel good, that guy wasn't the right one for her.

I strongly opine, why should we bind ourself to a so called "love relationship" when the relationship wasn't meant for? Why should we do stupid things and compromise when the relationship is not working?

If you are not happy with the present relationship, go to the root and find out. I will be very happy spending a moment happily with my love than spending twenty years with someone whom I don't love or am forced to act like being in love. Forget about rich or poor, popular or ill-famed, educated or layman...when you once fall in love, your life will be always on cloud number 9.

The picture of life starts when you meet your love. Quite often, the past doesn't matter in between true love... Let me conclude, now she seems very happy, laughing when alone, and eagerly waiting for the next moment, expecting sweet messages from the murmuring air...

I must admit, I am happy, very very happy, to see you happy.